Monday, January 25, 2010
was written at 6:16 PM
What bothers me is that..
- She sucks.
- It's obvious she sucks.
- I can't believe she can't see that she seriously suck.
I mean really. You call that a product?
Not only that, you don't smilekah daling? Please lah ah. Seriously. You think everybody likes you? Some don't. You seriously need to buffer up your personality.
Stop with the thought that you're better than others cause you're not. If you were any better, you wouldn't be following a band, you'd make one.
And I'm not finished with you yet..
- Just because you're pretty that doesn't mean all guys like you.
- Even if they get close to you doesn't mean they want to be with you.
- And stop proving to us that guys do like you.
- Stop 'memajal' to make sure those guys only likes you.
- Cause I don't care. You can have them all you want.
- Stop pretending to care when all you care about is your image infront of the guys.
- Just fuckin' stop it.
Fuck you.
- She sucks.
- It's obvious she sucks.
- I can't believe she can't see that she seriously suck.
I mean really. You call that a product?
Not only that, you don't smilekah daling? Please lah ah. Seriously. You think everybody likes you? Some don't. You seriously need to buffer up your personality.
Stop with the thought that you're better than others cause you're not. If you were any better, you wouldn't be following a band, you'd make one.
And I'm not finished with you yet..
- Just because you're pretty that doesn't mean all guys like you.
- Even if they get close to you doesn't mean they want to be with you.
- And stop proving to us that guys do like you.
- Stop 'memajal' to make sure those guys only likes you.
- Cause I don't care. You can have them all you want.
- Stop pretending to care when all you care about is your image infront of the guys.
- Just fuckin' stop it.
Fuck you.
You got me XOXO,
Wedah
was written at 1:01 AM
This thing just happened..
I straightened my back sekali my butt melatup. I mean not melatup bom -__-'. As in melatup mcm kamu latupkan your fingers bah. Aku kecalian.. Hehe..
So the graduation night happened last.. Night. The night before lah ah considering the time. Everybody looked awesome. Serious shit. SEMUA! Gorgeous and handsome! XD I tepikat! The food exquisite, the performances stunning and the prizes..BAYIEE BAH AKU INDA MANANG! Mobile phones, digital cameras, ipod touches, ipod shuffles and lots more segala tambak lah ah! And aku nada manang -__-'. But I did won an award though.. Jadi Queen Late/absentee. HAHA. RUGGED BAH TU. XP
The bini and I were both in black.. Hahah. Inda lesbian di mana tu yaw. XD Sekali kami macam orang gila begambar sama semua laki laki. Au kami gatal. Peduli. Hahah yatah masanya tu! XD Pakal saja abang hong nada. Mun ada abis tu 100+ pics di gambar bersama dia. Haha. Abang sabri lagi? Allah pikir saja mun ia ada ah.. inda terkira pakah pics dia!
And bini I love your testy to me XD. And I love you too! Hehe. And btw testymu arahku lai.
My mind restless lagi by the way..
And I just realise I have mood to write when I'm restless. Perfect bah tu yaw. XD Pictures later lah ah after complete upload arah Facebook.
*uck you.
I straightened my back sekali my butt melatup. I mean not melatup bom -__-'. As in melatup mcm kamu latupkan your fingers bah. Aku kecalian.. Hehe..
So the graduation night happened last.. Night. The night before lah ah considering the time. Everybody looked awesome. Serious shit. SEMUA! Gorgeous and handsome! XD I tepikat! The food exquisite, the performances stunning and the prizes..BAYIEE BAH AKU INDA MANANG! Mobile phones, digital cameras, ipod touches, ipod shuffles and lots more segala tambak lah ah! And aku nada manang -__-'. But I did won an award though.. Jadi Queen Late/absentee. HAHA. RUGGED BAH TU. XP
The bini and I were both in black.. Hahah. Inda lesbian di mana tu yaw. XD Sekali kami macam orang gila begambar sama semua laki laki. Au kami gatal. Peduli. Hahah yatah masanya tu! XD Pakal saja abang hong nada. Mun ada abis tu 100+ pics di gambar bersama dia. Haha. Abang sabri lagi? Allah pikir saja mun ia ada ah.. inda terkira pakah pics dia!
And bini I love your testy to me XD. And I love you too! Hehe. And btw testymu arahku lai.
My mind restless lagi by the way..
And I just realise I have mood to write when I'm restless. Perfect bah tu yaw. XD Pictures later lah ah after complete upload arah Facebook.
*uck you.
You got me XOXO,
Wedah
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Its Time To Panic was written at 4:19 PM
Tonigh is THE night and yet here I am downloading songs. Mana cali ni. Sudah tah baju ku nada. Make up lagi antah cemana kah jadinya. Not to mention my HAIR. But somehow I dont mind all that so much. PASAL saya bahagia dengan kasut saya. Tee Hee. And I know regardless of what I'm gonna wear, Tonight will be a BLAST.My brain has yet to process the fact that I have FINISHED school. Its like a habit since I was 4 to wake up early and all that kali mcm tarus tarus you dont have to do it anymore. 15 years of doing that kali mcm... inda tia payah lagi. I dont even know if thats a good thing. Or maybe not.
I really really need to get a job PRONTO. Not only am I bankrupt but with nothing to do mcm all i do i s sleep and eat (BABI *maychee impression*) and its not making me any thinner!
Sigh.
Entah eh.
Wai kau bau. Pogoshipo.
Daridiri dara duu~~
You got me XOXO,
Fiq
Thursday, January 14, 2010
was written at 12:56 AM
Saya restless.. Again. Annoying pulang ni banarnya. But yeah I can't help but be restless about it.
My maid akan balik kerumah saya esuk pukul 6.30. I can't wait, rindu sayakan ia. Haha seriousku. Graduation day tak lagi lama tiba..Saya alum ambil baju, alum tecari kasut. I don't know what to do -__-'. Sakit kepalaku. Haha.
Bah itu saja ah. Aight.
My maid akan balik kerumah saya esuk pukul 6.30. I can't wait, rindu sayakan ia. Haha seriousku. Graduation day tak lagi lama tiba..Saya alum ambil baju, alum tecari kasut. I don't know what to do -__-'. Sakit kepalaku. Haha.
Bah itu saja ah. Aight.
You got me XOXO,
Wedah
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Isi isi was written at 10:53 PM
I am here.. In my room.. Wearing pyjamas.. Gulping jasmine green tea..
HAHA.
Anyways, today is my 'Stress By My Mother' Day. She really pushed my buttons today. Macam, she ordered me around for example cari her room keys cause she lost it. -__-' Lapas atu sikit sikit marah and say I shouldn't act like so and so since I'm nearly 20. -__-' Sasakku. Then paling extreme was she asked me to climb the fireman's ladder to get into her room pasal ia malu if the firemen masuk ke biliknya. -__-' Bangganglah aku..I mean, don't I have huge brothers who people practically think are older, who could climb better? Gila wah. And she said, I quote, (to lure me to want to climb the ladder) "Siuk jua tu extreme bah adventure. Lifetime experience"
INDEEEE.. -________-' I swear the veins on my head are still visibly pulsing.
So tadi I potong my graduation kain. Sadly I got yang lunturkan and since it's non-exchangable, pakai saja tia. Ok pulang banarnya I don't mind it pasal inda nampak banar tapi the tailor lah majal cakap sayang yatah aku sasak -__-'. Pemajal hantap. Rasakan ku sauk wah pikir saja. -__-'
So my cousin ada problem with the boyfriend.. I actually find it fascinating. Macam, ok seriously wah I've never been in those kinds of stuff or problems yatah I should go all sasak but somehow.. Inda. I don't sasak the guy kah apa.. I don't think her decisions and actions are stupid crap. She asks me stuff but I tell her bluntly I don't know. I tell her what I think pulang, what I think she should do crap but I kept reminding her lah I've never in one so don't trust me that much. I listened to her lah apa. Some of those times, I divert the talk to something else. They may think I'm being selfish kan cakap pasal diriku but it's just that I feel uncomfortable liat durang pikirkan the problem and marung marung.. And she doesn't talk about it much so bahapa juaku kan pajal? You know. If she tells then ok I listen but when she doesn't want to talk then I'll stop, then I just dance making them laugh.
So the problem ada affect kah inda arah saya? Yes ada. It just made me not want a relationship. Takutku. I mean, I want a guy who loves me; with that love he'd only see me, trust me and wouldn't want to hurt me. He accepts me the way I am, my good sides and bad sides, and he wouldn't care about the bad side jua in the end pasal what matters is that it's me, nada orang lain. So it gets me thinking.. Why do you go curang?
I guess it's because you're not happy with them? Or maybe andang gatal? Or the love is just gone? If it's gone then why can't you cut it off before you go and look for another? Is it because you're scared? Of what? Breaking their hearts? But bukankah if they found out kamu curang, that would hurt them far more then putus pasal the love is gone? And finding out kamu curang is more bastard than anything. You know.
I'm not sure what I will be in the future but for now, what I do know is that when I love someone I only love that one person. No one else tu. I may sound gatal shit suka macam macam laki laki but no one else tu.. In my heart that person saja. So they get all the benefits.. I mean I'd love them sampai sampai I'd be really setia no one else crap, I'll try to make them happy, I'll think about them all the time, miss them 24/7 and semua lah ah. Finally when they want it to be over, I'd love them so much that I'd let them go and see them be happy.
So when I get in a relationship atu wah, ngam tia yang jenis curang yang I'd love; they don't even love me at all, girls keliling pinggang and I'm sure I'll be a fool tu love ia saja tu.. And when he goes around cutting it off he wouldn't feel guilty pasal I'd say inda apa tu pasal I want them to be happy (and I'm sincere about it). So sakit jua aku tu. =( Menakutkan.
HAHA.
Anyways, today is my 'Stress By My Mother' Day. She really pushed my buttons today. Macam, she ordered me around for example cari her room keys cause she lost it. -__-' Lapas atu sikit sikit marah and say I shouldn't act like so and so since I'm nearly 20. -__-' Sasakku. Then paling extreme was she asked me to climb the fireman's ladder to get into her room pasal ia malu if the firemen masuk ke biliknya. -__-' Bangganglah aku..I mean, don't I have huge brothers who people practically think are older, who could climb better? Gila wah. And she said, I quote, (to lure me to want to climb the ladder) "Siuk jua tu extreme bah adventure. Lifetime experience"
INDEEEE.. -________-' I swear the veins on my head are still visibly pulsing.
So tadi I potong my graduation kain. Sadly I got yang lunturkan and since it's non-exchangable, pakai saja tia. Ok pulang banarnya I don't mind it pasal inda nampak banar tapi the tailor lah majal cakap sayang yatah aku sasak -__-'. Pemajal hantap. Rasakan ku sauk wah pikir saja. -__-'
So my cousin ada problem with the boyfriend.. I actually find it fascinating. Macam, ok seriously wah I've never been in those kinds of stuff or problems yatah I should go all sasak but somehow.. Inda. I don't sasak the guy kah apa.. I don't think her decisions and actions are stupid crap. She asks me stuff but I tell her bluntly I don't know. I tell her what I think pulang, what I think she should do crap but I kept reminding her lah I've never in one so don't trust me that much. I listened to her lah apa. Some of those times, I divert the talk to something else. They may think I'm being selfish kan cakap pasal diriku but it's just that I feel uncomfortable liat durang pikirkan the problem and marung marung.. And she doesn't talk about it much so bahapa juaku kan pajal? You know. If she tells then ok I listen but when she doesn't want to talk then I'll stop, then I just dance making them laugh.
So the problem ada affect kah inda arah saya? Yes ada. It just made me not want a relationship. Takutku. I mean, I want a guy who loves me; with that love he'd only see me, trust me and wouldn't want to hurt me. He accepts me the way I am, my good sides and bad sides, and he wouldn't care about the bad side jua in the end pasal what matters is that it's me, nada orang lain. So it gets me thinking.. Why do you go curang?
I guess it's because you're not happy with them? Or maybe andang gatal? Or the love is just gone? If it's gone then why can't you cut it off before you go and look for another? Is it because you're scared? Of what? Breaking their hearts? But bukankah if they found out kamu curang, that would hurt them far more then putus pasal the love is gone? And finding out kamu curang is more bastard than anything. You know.
I'm not sure what I will be in the future but for now, what I do know is that when I love someone I only love that one person. No one else tu. I may sound gatal shit suka macam macam laki laki but no one else tu.. In my heart that person saja. So they get all the benefits.. I mean I'd love them sampai sampai I'd be really setia no one else crap, I'll try to make them happy, I'll think about them all the time, miss them 24/7 and semua lah ah. Finally when they want it to be over, I'd love them so much that I'd let them go and see them be happy.
So when I get in a relationship atu wah, ngam tia yang jenis curang yang I'd love; they don't even love me at all, girls keliling pinggang and I'm sure I'll be a fool tu love ia saja tu.. And when he goes around cutting it off he wouldn't feel guilty pasal I'd say inda apa tu pasal I want them to be happy (and I'm sincere about it). So sakit jua aku tu. =( Menakutkan.
You got me XOXO,
Wedah
Sunday, January 3, 2010
was written at 1:29 PM
Reasons I'm too scared to ask:
- I might get the answer that I don't want to hear.
- Might get ridiculed for asking it.
- Might not be answered.
Reasons I'm too scared to say hi:
- Might not be answered.
- Might be ignored then forgotten; not acknowledged.
Haha. I just ran out of ideas on what to write, might as well write crap.
Tadi main netball. Siuk hantap ketawa ketawa saja! XD Hehe. I like.. Sakit parut though so inda berapa bemainlah ah.. Kan semua ada tadi datang so fun tak terkata. Serious shit it just confirms it that netball is my stress reliever. Banar tah.
I really want to write it down but I don't know how but pokoknya..
I'm restless. =)
- I might get the answer that I don't want to hear.
- Might get ridiculed for asking it.
- Might not be answered.
Reasons I'm too scared to say hi:
- Might not be answered.
- Might be ignored then forgotten; not acknowledged.
Haha. I just ran out of ideas on what to write, might as well write crap.
Tadi main netball. Siuk hantap ketawa ketawa saja! XD Hehe. I like.. Sakit parut though so inda berapa bemainlah ah.. Kan semua ada tadi datang so fun tak terkata. Serious shit it just confirms it that netball is my stress reliever. Banar tah.
I really want to write it down but I don't know how but pokoknya..
I'm restless. =)
You got me XOXO,
Wedah
Friday, January 1, 2010
Careless Whispers was written at 2:33 AM
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY! XD
Any resolutions you may ask? Just 1: To be someone I'm not.
Not that I can explain how but yeah.. Ada tah tu. =)
So bahapa saja saya tadi on the last day of the year? Well, woke up at 10 kana telipun oleh mama suruh mandi kan my brother but luckily ia sudah mandi so I went back to sleep. Hehe. Then bangun akhirnya, makan ayam penyet. Sekali ajar my cousin science yang aku pun banggang cana kan explain arahnya..Sakit wah science ani. Sigh. Sekali hung out with my cousins and cerita cerita.
Oh yeah ikut hantar my nini juga lawat siblingnya and dorang cerita cerita..Sekali it got me thinking: Kami karang tua cerita cerita tah nganya ni, baik tah ku buat things other than cerita cerita sal I'll be having alot of time to cerita when I'm their age Amin saya panjang umur. Wow, another resolution. Hehe. Then malamnya kerumah bungsu kami ia manggil makan makan lah ah. Then after sana, my cousins and I pergi Empire tengok fireworks. Everybody was happy time tengok I guess.. But time aku meliat atu ah, I can't help but feel restless. Entah kah kenapa but yeah. Awesome by the way but yeah that's just it. Restless.
2009 has been a very life changing year for me: Many first time experiences, many adventures, many new people that I've met and many many lah ah. I love it. Happy ku with it and I just hope my 2010 gets better =). I don't care wherever it may take me; it may not follow my plans and dreams but as long as I'm happy with it then I guess that is me living my life.
Hope you guys semua happy, better things to come in this new year and kamu semua bau.. HAHA! XD
Any resolutions you may ask? Just 1: To be someone I'm not.
Not that I can explain how but yeah.. Ada tah tu. =)
So bahapa saja saya tadi on the last day of the year? Well, woke up at 10 kana telipun oleh mama suruh mandi kan my brother but luckily ia sudah mandi so I went back to sleep. Hehe. Then bangun akhirnya, makan ayam penyet. Sekali ajar my cousin science yang aku pun banggang cana kan explain arahnya..Sakit wah science ani. Sigh. Sekali hung out with my cousins and cerita cerita.
Oh yeah ikut hantar my nini juga lawat siblingnya and dorang cerita cerita..Sekali it got me thinking: Kami karang tua cerita cerita tah nganya ni, baik tah ku buat things other than cerita cerita sal I'll be having alot of time to cerita when I'm their age Amin saya panjang umur. Wow, another resolution. Hehe. Then malamnya kerumah bungsu kami ia manggil makan makan lah ah. Then after sana, my cousins and I pergi Empire tengok fireworks. Everybody was happy time tengok I guess.. But time aku meliat atu ah, I can't help but feel restless. Entah kah kenapa but yeah. Awesome by the way but yeah that's just it. Restless.
2009 has been a very life changing year for me: Many first time experiences, many adventures, many new people that I've met and many many lah ah. I love it. Happy ku with it and I just hope my 2010 gets better =). I don't care wherever it may take me; it may not follow my plans and dreams but as long as I'm happy with it then I guess that is me living my life.
Hope you guys semua happy, better things to come in this new year and kamu semua bau.. HAHA! XD
You got me XOXO,
Wedah