Thursday, May 1, 2008
This is for pissing me off. was written at 1:14 AM
I just realize that I'm messing with the wrong crowd. Not that I noticed it nor do I care; I mean, I don't want to be in it anyway. I have friends who cares, whom I trust (about 12; both female and male) and their secrets are safe with me. I don't befriend a person just because they're rich, cool or beautiful. I know it's hard to believe but like hell, I seriously don't. You can be bitchy, ego kah, weird kah, geeky kah; I don't care. If you see me as a friend then I am. If you don't then we're not. You got a new thinggamajig kah, you're flying off somewhere kah just go right ahead; I'm just happy for you. I mean what good does it give me if I think about what you have and try to gain from it or even get all worked up about it in all the negative ways possible? Tebria-bria ada pulang kali. If in any way, you think that I'm being friends with you because you're cool, smart, rich or beautiful and then with that, I'm taking advantages from it; you better go and dig a grave now. 'cause I'd kill you right there and then. I DON'T DO THAT. You're reaching for your goals; I'm happy for you, go get it, good luck and always stay happy. You've got the new Ipod that you wanted; cool, I'm happy for you. You're happy; then I'm happy. I believe you're capable of making your dreams come true (Syah), I believe you have all the confidence in the world to get what you want in life (Fiq) and I believe that you have all the strength to be strong and stay happy for yourself; not for anyone else (Yun). Even if my friends one day would leave me behind I would not be staying there. I'd be on my own way making decisions, enjoying new experiences and being happy with my life; then at the same time think about you guys and pray with all my heart that you're happy. I try not to leave you behind, I try to keep in touch and I try with all my being to keep your secrets. And THAT'S for being my friend.I know this post is cheesy but I'm pissed off as hell can ever be right now. It was better when we didn't talk to eachother. That way, I didn't get hurt by you and your "friends."
Owh, just so we're clear, this post is for you Bastad.
Chef, just agree with me and don't ask what happened. I'll eventually tell anyway.
Di suruh inda jua di buatnya. Inda jua ikhlas tu...Buduh.
You got me XOXO,
Wedah