Saturday, January 3, 2009
was written at 12:20 AM
Okay, I'm officially bored.So I just finished reading our (Fiqah and me) blog archives.
And all I got to say for my 2008 is..
It was a blast..
I sincerely feel that 2008 was a blast..
I mean,
I traveled, I did things out of the ordinary (my bebehs should know this), I laughed, I cried (-__-' Don't we all?), I went to new places (like xcapade; who knew it was my first time goin there in 2008), listen to new music, read new books, meet new people, said goodbye to friends and did handball which I'm still not a fan of.
I'm thankful and I hope 2009 will be best as well. I hope I keep on doing things that's unexpected of me (like studying my ass off) and I hope I stay happy. I love being happy.. -__-' Don't we all?
Anyway, I'm actually sad right now. My heart really hurts and NO it's not because of a guy..It's something else. Boys are not the only reason for my heartbreaks. I already cried my eyes out and blabbed about it to people I know except for the person who REALLY needs to hear about it. I can't really tell you the specifics but I should say that that was the last straw. It really broke my heart.. It feels like your heart's position is way low, like it's touching your diaprham (sp?) and it feels wet in there and your breathing's abit off from it. Sasakku. I could say that if people was to label me as evil from this then be my guest. I'm already evil, the devil, jahat, no feelings, lupakan orang and crap. I know I am. I know bad karma shall forever follow. I know and I accept.
I miss Gigi T.Keith. Haha. You thought I've no interest in him anymore? You're wrong bebeh. I'm still into him; I didn't bring him up much in this blog cause people say I'm too obvious and it's not cool. But now I've realise; it's no use. I think EVERYBODY ALREADY KNOWS that I freakin like him except himself which is frustrating. So yeah screw it I'm mentioning him now. I freakin miss him and I'm 'scaredly excited' to see him again when school opens up. If that's even a word. For the past month I've miss him like shit. Paluiku memikirkan. Kalau bejalan I hope he's anywhere where I was, kalau MSN I hope ia ada and crap kalau ku di rumah I think about him. Hopeless I know. Very hopeless, very sick. Even I can't deny it. Whatever screw it. I just HOPE HE KNOWS I'M TALKING ABOUT HIM.
I hope that he actually knows that I like him even if he doesn't feel that way.. but the problem with him is that he's freakin blunt. Blunt like ass. So yeah.. Frustrating..
Sigh I'm done.. I suck really.
Yours Truly,
Wedah
You got me XOXO,
Wedah